Aloepuppy

I looked in the mirror the other day.

Like really looked in the mirror. Right into my eyes and this thought popped in my head.

I sat.

In silence.

And started at my myself in the mirror.

Yes there were some regrets. Big ones.

Why couldn’t I have chosen this path instead of that one. Looking back, I watched my friends start their lives. They were getting jobs, getting married, in some cases, living their dreams!

I was trying to take my life back from vices that had taken a strong hold on me. Clearly from reckless decisions.

By the time I had gotten some of these things under control, new issues were popping up that needed my immediate attention. And then there were more bad decisions. I think they call it shooting yourself in the foot.

Looking in the mirror was tough. I could see the stubborn half Scottish, half French girl staring back at me. I said to her, “You did the best you could with the hand you were dealt.” No I did not get to foefill my dreams, but I did learn a lot about myself and gained a ton of wisdom. I chose a harder path and maybe that’s what my soul wanted for me to experience during this lifetime. If you ever find yourself looking in the mirror, give yourself a break. Give yourself a hug instead of self-criticism and practice a little forgiveness.